It's not good enough to grudgingly believe complementarianism — must see it as good and beautiful

The 'grudging complementarian' who believes it but resents it disapproves of what God says is good. Changing theological position isn't enough — the heart position must change too. Need to see God's design as healthy, good, and beautiful. Look at Christ and the church — that's the model. Translate it to husband-wife and eldership. Look at these things until you see the beauty. Until you appreciate and champion these things, you aren't fully biblical.