Cheryl

Don,

Thanks also for keeping me up to date without me having to go back on that abusive board. The fact that CARM’s VP keeps calling me “radio poison” shows that the charge is accurate. They are not just repeating a charge that they are not applying themselves to me. If someone went onto Matt’s board and said that others had said that Matt was ____ (fill in the blank with any kind of slander) then the person repeating the slander would be disciplined. Matt’s repeating of the charge was wrong and if he was a real confident man of God he would apologize for repeating it.

Matt had said at one point that he has no idea why no body would agree to go on the radio with him to debate the women’s issue. Well this is clearly the reason why. Matt is verbally abusive (he himself acknowledged that he was hard on me) and those who value love and respect do not want to be abused. The only reason I went on the program is because of some of the women I heard speaking about their calling into ministry and Matt telling them they are not allowed. I cared enough to be abused myself to help even one person. I have been praying that God will give me fruit. If I know that I have helped even one person because of what I have been through, then it will seem less of a struggle for me.

I also value accuracy and the problem with me is that I listened to two of Matt’s shows in one day and one of them was live. It was wrong of me to be confused about what show I listened to. I could make excuses about how I got confused but that wouldn’t help. When the Friday show was put up I was sure the live show was where the very unkind charge was and it wasn’t there. Because they put the show up in two pieces I thought it had been edited out. If the show had been put up in one piece I would have realized my mistake right away. I am not blaming them for my mistake. However because I was sure the charge was on the Friday edition, I had nothing to listen to again (I thought) and that is why I posted on Matt’s board.

The fact is that I screwed up and for a researcher who is nit-picky about details, it is frustrating (and wrong) to state something that you don’t have the material to re-listen to. The fact is also that Matt was wrong for stating such an unkind thing about me on the air. It really hurt me even more so than the charge of heretic. To call me poison (through another’s words), and one who is responsible for undermining the church is just over the edge. I am responsible for undermining the church? And Matt can get away with all of this because he hides behind someone else. Someone who shoots another believer in the back and hides behind someone else who has a gun in their hand might be called a name themselves.

The real problem is that I was teaching in the debate and Matt cannot allow a woman to teach on the radio. This reminds me of the Jewish leaders who stood as a gate before the people. Jesus said that they were not gaining entrance into heaven and they weren’t letting others who wanted to go in, go into heaven. Matt appears to be holding back my teaching because he doesn’t want people to hear it. The fact is that my exegesis of 1 Timothy 2:15 has never yet been refuted and this is the key conclusion of the entire prohibition passage in 1 Timothy 2. For Matt to say that he knows something that I don’t know is ludicrous. His claim to know the answer when he doesn’t he isn’t giving it out is like the tactics that the JWs have used with me. It is an appeal to knowledge that is never given out and that appeal is supposed to impress. Those who claim to have the answer but never give it out or who will not allow their answer to be publicly challenged are less than honest.