Taylor

Mara,
Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. I am so happy that I stumbled upon this blog. It reaffirms what I have always thought to be true. I know that I am young but I want to be able to help other young women in my situation and connect with those that have been there. I think people who are opposed to women in ministry or feel that God has not gifted women with such talents, don’t see that this issue deeply affects the people involved.
I am at an age where I am suppose to be looking for internships and seeking connects for my future, but it is hard to do that when people within your desired vocation have strong convictions against you. It hurts to feel like you are wrong for serving God. This isn’t just some theological debate or highly controversial issue, these are the struggles that are currently being faced by women in ministry or who desire to go into ministry. Real people with real feeling who have serving God embedded on their hearts. Maybe it is something that I will never understand.

I am a college student and I am majoring in Preaching Ministry. I am the only female in the preaching program. Ever since I was little, I wanted to be a pastor and yet, I was turned down by schools because they didn’t think it was biblical. It broke me and I had a really hard time figuring out my relationship with God. All I want to do is serve him with the gifts that I have and yet, I am not allowed to. I feel confused and tormented because I know I am not meant for anything else but serving God with my gifts of teaching and pastoring. I go back and forth on this daily.

The God that I know would not condemn me for serving him. He is about love! I don’t understand people who quote Bible verses telling me that what I am doing is wrong. Why is it wrong to serve God with all that you have? These thoughts plague my mind.