Jane

Hi Cheryl,

well my angst isn’t so much with God or Jesus anymore, religion yes, I have nothing to do with it at all, not anymore, but it’s been two long years of hard work between me and Jesus to do a lot of damage control that has been caused by religion, and I am referring to Christian religion, both Catholic and Protestant. [I am married to a Jew so there is that then I had experience with Islam so I see more commonalities especially with the whole comp Egyptian teachings and those I strongly believe are not just centered around the whole marriage ‘cult’ god in this nation’s religious culture [euro-centric] but also in economics and war mongering policies, e.g. nationalism and xenophobia-chauvinism.

So anyway to me I see more of the Bael-actually the Pharaoh* worship in the whole culture in regards to the pyramid of mammon, that then filters to the whole tolerance-acceptance and even embracing and POLLUTING the Doctrines taught in the Word of God, as THE ROOT, rather than the relationships between husband and wives or even the question of should women be ministers, etc. From that angle that is and I’m seeing it more and more in the Word.

It is in coming to grips with the doubts and questions, which yesterday was one of those down days that I get answers, what I mean is when I get to the end of my rope and lose heart is when God breaks through and reveals things to me, with confirmation. What struck me in the poem a lot was the reference to the Stockholm Syndrome and so like I’ve known to refer to the struggles as internalizations but I didn’t really pay attention to how Stockholm Syndrome can manifest/Germinate just through being exosed and hearing and hearing the distorted pyramid Egyptian polluted doctrines that have taken hold, a stronghold, in our Christian culture. I knew there were triggers but it’s so much more than triggers,

this is something that goes deep into the spiritual place and we haven’t even scratched the surface yet. I got a confirmation on this through numerous scriptures this morning, in regards to my own walk and so forth but it’s relavent here so I’ll share them,

in Isaiah 57, 1-8, has Strong implications to the culture today, but see under the ‘mask of goodness, a.k.a. religion’ it’s easy to not see it, but in verse 3-5, “But draw near hither, ye sons of the sorceress, the seed of the adulterer and the whore. Against whom do ye sport yourselves? Against whom make ye a wide mouth, and draw out the tongue? are ye NOT children of transgression, a seed of Falsehood? Enflaming yourselves with idols under every green tree, slaying the children in the valleys under the cliffs of the rocks?”…

So here is where the Stockholm Syndrome is related, using my lens/experience here but it’s relevant,

we judge through our lens who God is or what God demands, this includes scriptures, be it men who do this to Enflame themselves [I am firmly convinced the obsession with submission/authority has a lot to do with the desire towards or leaning towards pedophilia/sexual perversion, and it is spiritual darkness, and the reason for this is having been exposed to ritual abuse in my childhood, e.g. Masons, etc., knowing a bit about those beliefs and well, without going into a lot of detail here God has shown me a lot through deliverance and it IS really strongly connected, especially the whole Pagan roots that go all the way back to Egypt, Mesopotamia, Samaria, Greece & Rome but anyway–put it this way, the Poison is so in churchianity/church culture-religion it’s not Even funny–for a long while I thought it was just Babylon and I didn’t tie in the whole Egyptian religions in though I had numerous dreams–it wasn’t until I started piecing together the Word and certain things in the dreams [and the dreams went along with numerous things in Bible] that God showed me–

but anyway, the insects all over the wall has meaning that many miss–so ok then so like, I struggle a lot with how I see God, discernment, and like it’s pretty much having to dump all the man doctrines and going direct to the Word and staying there, but there are those mountains of ‘doubt’ that you know they aren’t unlearned simply by throwing out scriptures, they have to be revealed and cast down, because they are Strongholds,

and in those times I often question God because I don’t or didn’t really KNOW who God was, the God we are often told about isn’t God but it’s luciferian, FACT. And it’s done ‘neatly packaged’ through scriptures and man’s doctrines.

The syndrome comes from the fact that our lens is from that seed, the sorceress, adulteress, etc., is in relation not just to our like natural parents–but our spiritual parent/sin/the tree of knowledge but also the nation and culture–get what I am saying,

and it is Deeply embedded, the cup of iniquity [is almost full] and the source of and it is related to something far deeper than just surface, e.g., marriage and the questions of roles, etc. So like,

it’s NOT just confronting the use of certain ‘doctrines’ but going to the source root, of the Culture, that has polluted the church-RELIGION,

and it goes way beyond just the inner circle, so to speak. Anyway I divorced [term I use] the entire culture because it IS corrupted, make no mistake about it, it goes numerous years back, in This nation, in fact prior even To the foundation of this country,

it has a LOT to do with the whole leaning and it will become more so with the doctrines of authoritarianism, etc. Anyway after I posted that yesterday and wrestled on some topics God answered, thought I’d share that part,

to those who have ears let them hear…

In solidarity,

Jane